swEEt..

Saturday, November 29, 2008 11:23 PM

read Adrian's blog, say he hadn't seen hiroki and yanto for a long long time...
yup, i'm kinda anti-social...
not seeing alot of ppl for a who-knows-how-long time!
missed them alot though we ain't close=(
i missed them like how much i missed my secondary school days.
i had changed, u too, him and her, we all have changed.
the difference is just whether we have changed for the better or for the worst.
i hoped i had changed for the better, but who knows?
all of us have got a new group of friends, no longer hanging on to the past stubbornly.
i did cling on to the past before, but now, i'm not.
whether to choose these path is right or wrong for me, i can't change now, or in the future.
i may not be meant for what and where i am now, but i will continue to survive.
on a lighter note, i'm just trying to say that...i still miss my girls and i hope they are too. \
=)

Labels: memories that belongs to the little corner of my heart

``swEEt``

Thursday, November 27, 2008 9:29 PM

tralala~ i realized someone uses the same as me -> tralala!

but nvm, i will continue to use it!

suddenly wanted to upload some pictures taken on my cousin's wedding...few weeks ago?

so yaaa....will introduce who are in the pictures along the way ya....

brother and qiang

brother and zorin

celine and zorin

me and zorin

us again..hahah

some sneaks shots taken by zorin...cute uh....=)

mom, moi, zorin, brother and ping=)

kareen, zorin, jessie, mom

zorin and jessie..she just upgraded, becoming a mommy and on that day, she was the female lead's sis! she is the mother of ariel!!! *claps*

kenne, mom, kareen, celine, zorin and brother! my mom got there just in time for the pic....

waaa, dun get scared by her uh....hehe, last friday me, ym, sy, sc sat at mac to have ice cream haha...it was after gems! coz the gems lecturer was efficient that we can be dismissed after 45 mins of lecture? wahahahhah!

*say cheese!*

took this yesterday at dover mrt station! just a random shot here...

tralala~ haha, jurong east mrt there have alot of such shots to take! =)

today i finally flared up in front of the boy at tuition. gave him homework, he dun do...rah! 'i can be nice, but if you dun do my homework, i will be very nasty!' is what i said. but i dun think he learnt his lesson though...=(

but tutoring isn't a bad thing at all, i get to be more patient. however, i have to learn something and that is punctuality!! sobsob~

mst mst mst....jiayou peeps!

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``swEEt``

Tuesday, November 25, 2008 11:21 PM

my speed of studying is just so slow... wadeva~
anyway, yesterday mood was dampened.
now when i think i had to go tutoring on a sunday....
nevermind, hols are here, i should have more time?
i guess not.
I should be going to work?
wait for them to ask me again?
i dunno...
working there ties me down, i cant really do much during the weekdays.
though i can skip work, but i think its not a good idea?
coz i needa learn to be more responsible?
hmm, yea shall wait for collegues to contact me again.
just in case they dun need moi?
haha=)
gonna sleep...byeeee

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``swEEt``

Monday, November 24, 2008 8:08 PM

wowow~ tmr can come home early! erm, not exactly early, but at least can come home right after sch! study is what we all have to do... wed skipping sch, coz i wanna go for the eye screening! 3 hours... yumin and szeyin, i promised so i had to go=) i will sit with ws on thurs ba, my purnishment...
mst really suck can, i had no idea how to start studying--anatomy and microbio
no revision week, just go into mst straight away! gosh gosh....the previous time we had 3 weeks before mst, i already did so badly....this time...confirm much much much worse larrrrrrrr.
somemore, the mother of the boy is very busy uh, always cant accomodate my timing. grrrr. nvm, i can persevere, though i cant guarantee her son's good grade, but at least my goal now for him is he can put in a little effort to get his work done properly!
gonna study! bye! =)

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``swEEt``

Sunday, November 23, 2008 11:30 PM

parents are finally back! hehe, though no more big double bed for me, i still prefer them to be home! my dad told me a joke la....he was on the coach...and he is a huge snorer....den....he snored very very loud while hw was sleeping on the coach...till...the person beside him stuffed cotton into his/her ear!
gosh, my dad was 'powderful' uh...
tt is y i dun really like to sleep with my dad. if i had to, i will demand to sleep before he does. else, i will have a hard time getting to sleep larrr.
i want to go k boxxxx:> wanna sing sing and sing!!!
tests coming...study study!
feel myself getting ironic sometimes...
willmake some cookies after mst ended? hee...:>
anyway, the boy i gave tuition to...whoa...really have to be patient man! work anyhow do, ti'm trying to brainwash him...saying he had to put effort..coz he is really bad in his studies, failing everything. i asked him to do stuff that he should be very familiar...but in the end its a fail when i marked!! whenever i wanna be very stern, i will remember i had to be patient...be patient...be patient!!! gosh....he dun make me flare up..this is oni the forth lesson.
anyway, byee for now!

Labels: some things sets me thinking

``swEEt``

Saturday, November 22, 2008 8:48 PM

wowow~ ok i feel guilty...but its really nice to be out all the way till morning?
haha. yesterday after sch went for a forum on lasik with shuoing and yiboon. COOL~ the talk. haha
they talked about the how the surgery was performed, how prestigous we are in terms of experiences and volume.
the talk was interesting somehow^^
after the talk we went for dinner at xin wang. we ordered some dessert and dim sum to eat while waiting for john to join us. when he came, he ordered pineapple bun and one of the toast and the macau coffee. the coffee is nice leh, though i seldom drink coffee=S
the dinner was a fun one! we just simply laughed and laughed. the place was so crowded and buzzling with people.
=)
i enjoyed the breeze...the star gazing...chatting and everthing...

i hope this isn't going to start again..not asking me to go through another round of torment, another time will be enough to make me very upset. i shall not go near u again, i hope i can not even to think of you, maybe i will be better off....thanks alot alot, i will not trouble you again....this is gonna be the first and the last time?

Labels: not again

``swEEt``

Wednesday, November 19, 2008 11:36 PM

i broke my promise once again. vision got blurry again. was chatting with john and shuping. den we were talikng about our parents and how our dads aged. my tears can forever not win my family. i cant really mention about my family. as in not how they worked, how they cared for me. i cant, im not up for it. family is my weakness. its not the first time. i lost count on how many times i have teared due to this reason. im just not strong enough. this is a barrier and i can forever not be able to cross over.

Labels: i love all those who loved me

``swEEt``

Monday, November 17, 2008 8:02 AM

its really sad to see sad posts on frenz blog. it caused me to think that I'm really bad as a friend. i know i cant fulfil alot of things that i had to do, but at least, let me be the one next to those of my friends. i know some had gotten on, and need not really need me as a friend, but i still hope that they do think of me once in a while. really, i hope memories will last.
next, my parents. though they are always there for me, i cant be the obedient girl anymore. i feel stupid whenever i get annoyed with them or when my attitude towards them isn't good. sometimes a cry out will do good, but after the tears have dried, what had happened can never be undone. people say let bygones be bygones, but it doesn't do for me as i'm one who will hang on to the past and refuse to move on.

Labels: i love all those who love me

``swEEt``

Sunday, November 16, 2008 3:21 PM

went to my cousin's wedding yesterday morning! tired! coz i only slept for 4 or 5 hours..

We were rather late still and i din manage to take any pictures! gosh gosh...=(

After my cousin went over to the bridegroom's side, i was the only few left at in the house. so i slept with my niece! she is such a darling! getting more and more chubby as the days passed.

she was in the baby cot while i slept ont he bed. beside the room is a kitchen and the elders were all there talking. she did not even move at all at their quite loud talking voices! she kind of filter off their voices and concentrate in her sleeping...think"sleeping is more important...."

tmr having character development skit! haish....hope it will not be screwed up by me=(

i wonder how it feels to have someone less in the household...as in example, my bro got married and moved out. it will feel super duper weird! though i always say my brother irritating, i still prefer him to be by me...i know, everone has to grow up....i should get more mature. no one can stay by me forever, not even friends. they will have their own commitments....

maybe its a little to early to say all these, well well~

wowow~

there is one of our lecturer, age 24! gosh, right, i was mean coz i expected an ans larger than 24...29 or 30 maybe? cozz the way he dressed makes him really much older! my bro was 23 and their way of dressing is way to different!

haha, my bro sho nice eh...i forgot my labcoat and i called him to bring it to me at dover and he agreed just so readily! nice nice bro though a bit hateful sometimes i think=P

right, shall stop here, MST COMING!!!! *thunder roars* heeee, bye for now~!

Labels: i love all those who love moiii

``swEEt``

Saturday, November 15, 2008 12:54 AM

Wowowee~ finally is the end of my torturous week 5 of sch. now what i left will be ocular anatomy prac!! like finally? tired larrrrr...tmr needa wake up at 5 according to mom? for cousin's wedding...haha some of you might say, cousin's wedding again?? yup, another cousin's wedding! will wish them have a baby soon! =) for my to play with!!

was back home from supper with yiboon, ping, qr and kel. yiboon drove! haha if not I wun be able to go for the supper lo. today's 4 hours of break passed rather fast? was suppose to go dinner together with parents to anut's house, but in the end i ended a little too late, so i din go. Instead, went clubhouse to laze around and asked people out for dinner hee. but in the end, settled dinner in the clubhouse! had free dinner? got full after a few chicken wings and shared a piece of pizza with jh...blahhh hahaha.

but during supper i did something sinful! i had yanyan(mixed flavour), iced choco with whipped cream from mc cafe and sundae hot fudge! Dunno how many calories from this supper mannnn.

nvm, be nice, do more exercise!!!!

i feel so bad la. always dunno how to go home....need them to look for street directory to get me home....=(

anyway anyway, i shall go donate blood! next year after my 18th birthday! promise! anyone wanna join mooi??

today sat in qr van for the first time and in yiboon's car for the first time...haha...not bad lar...still quite stable. me jh and ps went qr house to chill! i was doing continuing my story while ps and jh were playing qr's nintendo wii! sports! wanna slim down and have fun meanwhile? get a nintendo wii! whoaaaaaaa hoiiiiii ahhhhhh! hahhaha:>

now shall post some photos!

know what's this? its the magnified monkey's IRIS! haha look alot like a human one though. cool right? still can take pic using my phone....wakaka

this is the mnkey's CORNEA. nice? the endothelium is the red part there...if I'm not wrong? hahahahahaha shit...dun really know my work yet. lecturer says these slides needs extra care handling coz they are no longer available. the kill these mnkeys like few decades ago to get these samples? then now cannot kill them liao...so we need to protect them!

cute right??? this boy boy.i saw him at marina square once in the afternoon when i went shooting with szeyin for gems. he somehow stayed in that position for a long time lar... like din really move at all.

this was taken at the convention centre when we three and rid went for the Sp dance concert(SDZ) super nice lar! there is this cute guy, very tall and really good-looking. hahahah, somemore he knows how to dance! gosh, can he get any more better?

this was taken at spmp(singapore poly most photogenic) roadshow. we were playing with the voting box when there isn't any crowds of people. the winner is.....

not bad right? the girl is pretty!

i was trying to take the boards when jh's hand came and fits nicely here, so i just snap this pic lo..hah

F6 and F7, my two fav female finalists!

there is the boards where all the finalists studio shots are displayed for the people to see and then vote. ^^

this was one the fav pracs-ocular physiology. the first prac was to measure the eye of the subject! cool la....den this is the second prac, using the scheirmers(dunno if it is spelt rightly) strip to test for the amount of tears we have. so we had to put this strip of thing which is like a filter paper. this measures the amount of tears we produce under such conditions--when the eye is being irritated. we were supposed to see how how tears we have after 5minutes. but wang si and me did not even use 5 minutes and the whole strip of paper was wet! hahaha and we get to use flourescent dye lo...but too bad we din learn how to operate the slit lamp!=/ hahaha but till now, its really intersting!

i borrowed my bro's specs to school for cd. and they are wearing it...so funny!

well well, now is 1.34 am, time to slepp...at least some sleep is enough! byeee=)

Labels: Im just simly tired

``swEEt``

Thursday, November 13, 2008 12:33 AM

12.33 now. just uploaded pictures from camera to lappy. was EARLY to school today. and i was AN HOUR earlier! coz i totally forgotten that todays 8pm lesson was cancelled! shootzzz.so i slept in fc 2...hahha so tireddddd lar.
today's visual optics was ohgosh, nothing goes into my head. So sorry to DR zhu. I dun mean to keep dozing when u are teaching. That classroom just so not a place for me to study uh.
then after the lesson at 1, we went to library to do report. din mange to finish, coz i thought it will be a waste of energy as i will still rephrase alot of parts when i reach home. Then, szeyin went for a talk while me yumin and jolene went shooting for our gems. Had a real fun time...really...basically laughing at almost anything! Jolene and szeyin went home after dinner and finished their shooting. so only left meand yumin to shoot for ours. ASk me what happened at the museam next time. I swear i wun go such kind of places at that timing, around 9pm i think?
reached home at 11 plus, almost 12! whole day out. My shoulders are aching like crazyyy can! i haven completed my report! needa wake up @ 7am tmr to do it? hope i can uh.
night~bye for now...this week is a torturous one...

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``swEEt``

Monday, November 10, 2008 10:32 PM

Its over, i guess?
No longer have those kind of feelings whenever I'm talking to u. No more. I suppose its a good thing, for me to let go. It has been one-sided, so let it end one-sided too. Friends are forever. I will not fall into this kind of trap again. Not again. =)

bye!

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``swEEt``

Sunday, November 9, 2008 12:22 AM

today's big thing was the Dance Concert @ SPCC! Gosh! How nice can the concert be?? Just a simple word, FABULOUS=)

Kind of had fun today? haa, went out early in the morning to shoot with Szeyin. City halllike nothing to shoot lar....coz the buildings wereall about the same?? Though I took some pictures but not nice i think. Fri is the dateline and KwaKwaKwa......dead-meat-hot-soup!

I seem to have a lot of stuff to complete but i somehow dunno how and where to start off! howhowhow!

yup, i somesort a good-for-nothing kind of a person. I have got no talent in anything! I not even good at studies. Not even know how to cycle and swim! How worse can I be, tell me? hmm, maybe i'm not all good at nothing la. I'm good at throwing my temper?

Tue will be my first day. Iam not supposedto be late! how neh? whatif I late? Actuall idunno how to go to that place. Irene says its near the mrt, but person like me, with lousy sense of direction, is really really tough.

tmr gonna study with frenz, hope its gonna a good fruitful one, if not i will be so so so dead....

To those after their promos: If you passed, extremely proud of you! if you did not do as well, continue harder1 if you din manage, still perservere, do what you think is right, no need to think of what others think of you. whether is to opt for poly or continue in jc, choose a place where you really is comfortable with. =)

maybe i cant really sayor ask people to work harder, coz me myself is also a lazy slacker.

sleepy....bye!

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``swEEt``

Saturday, November 8, 2008 12:18 AM

tmr will be another long day! morning to city hall to shoot...den evening to spcc for concert! woo~
looking forward to tmr's concert, coz i really loved to watch people dance. hope it is gonna be a wonderful one!

gems, though no lessons, but still need to submit the pictures as assignments. gosh, not yet started. my photog skills are just so~so~...howhow??
also, tuition commerce in few days time, on tue. how isit going to be like? hmm, no idea, forgot how it oslike when I was having tuition! hahah. there will be practical on that day, till 6?
and tuition starts at 6?
howhow?
seriously hope that i have time to go all the way to yishun-katib for tuition. Irene says i must have conidence! yea! i can do it ya? jiayou jiayou!

last thing, MSTs coming! and i haven started on revision! i'm so dead. just so super dead.
gonna sleep, so byee~

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``swEEt``

Thursday, November 6, 2008 11:49 PM

doing report just now, kind of finished?

sometimes, feel so useless. others can just read on their own and understand. but that can forever never happen to me. always yawning, dozing off. dread it so much that i start to dread myself too. can i lose to myself and cry myself to sleep? till i never wake up? coz i am not as good a person as u think i am. i have no confidence coz i'm scared. whenever i had confidence, nothing comes good for me, something is bound to go wrong and then everything goes haywire. I'm weak. I know it. u may be thinking, suanjoo is plain silly, emo-ing bout basically nothing.

if u really think so, let it be. i dun care, no energy to care. i hate to admit, but i do have attitude problem. No doubts bout it.

bye~

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``swEEt``

Wednesday, November 5, 2008 11:33 PM

yup, super pissed by some 'kiddos' today.

please think before saying anything can? its not as if we are dead and cant hear what you all are saying. dun just because of one thing and u can condemn a person? i dun care if u can see this post, but i just wanna find somewhere i can vent anger on. please! u bunch of people, one thinks he handsome, one thinks he clever, others just follow suit. have some integrity la. u think u guys are so good? no can, not at all good. the really nice people keep quiet and be humble. not like you guys. respect people and you will deserve it in return. I shall willingly be the ugly one. you people need some manners okie?

kind of finish venting? i know i shouldn't be angry with this kind of peeps, but just cant help it. they are really annoying.

bye~

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``swEEt``

Tuesday, November 4, 2008 9:28 PM

heyhey! im back!

pictures, pictures=)