i dunno if you will be reading this, but...i still wanna say it here. they are your friends and what they are trying to do is help you get over this difficult period. but what you are doing now is cooping yourself in your own little shell and not taking any advice given by them. they have already done what they have and gave in their best effort. dun say things like, 'i din ask them to do that, its on their own willingness.' if you really say that, i will really wanna bash you up. everyone cares for you, but you are building a wall, so high that allows no one to climb over to reach you....

sort of looking forward to tuition BBQ? haha! sch is starting in like less than 12 hours time!
arghhhh...end of hols is the worst thing ever man!now, my aim, save money for my trip next time! claspsssss! ^^
nights poeple~

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went to visit Timothy's blog...
wow!
the pics he took, nice man!
the short story...creative=)
how i wish i can take shots like him...haha
today! another day spent outside...
went shooting at marina barrage, but ridiculously...i was terribly late.
we arranged to meet at 10am at marina bay mrt.
but stupidously and forgetfully, i din set my alarm nor did i ask anyone to wake me up and i went to sleep.
so next mornng, upon wakinf up on my own, i saw the time was 9.20!!!!!!
so i jumped up and quickly sms-ed ym tt i will be late...
guess what time i reached?
an hour and 40 minutes later at marina barrage...
ohmygodnesss, y am i always late?
maybe i cant survive on my own..haas
there nothing much to shoot so ya, went off to have lunch at plaza sing.
somehow, i only eat yong tau foo in food courts, no others...and the ingredients i get is like THE SAME...how boring...
after that, headed to mrt to meet our class guys, namely chee yang-chan wen-chong ping.
so today, the class outing---me, ym, sy and the guys...plus a guest, Jolene=)
alot of them cant make it, but ym still carried on with it, not wanting to cancel it.
but i guess, its a good thing...
lesser people, but we still enjoyed!
played quite a few games and had lots of laughter, CHEERSSS!
we did not take pictures! awww
was supposed to meet shuping they all, but in the end, didn't=(
but in the end, after sy and jol left, the rest of us went for 'dinner'
y 'dinner' leh?
coz they only had dessert and i had nothing!
haha
omg, we laughed like no one's business.
its the corner table we got and you know, echoes~
so ya=*}
then trained home!
and taadaaa!
end of today!

some people idiotic jiu hao, dun pull people in together la!
people can be nice and gentle, y cant you?
are you not a guy?
well, i'm not angry, but just pissed with ur actions and stuff...
you are nice, but sometimes not as nice...
yesh! thats all~
i wanted to post some pics, but i lazy upload! Roars...
goodebye!~

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<14岁妈妈>
this is the jap drama i currently watching.
this girl, 14 years old, got pregnant because of love, gave birth because of love...
she went through alot alot just to give birth to this little girl of hers..
she ignored the resistance in the family, ignore her friends' fornot forgiving to her pregnancy, ignored the neighbours and other people who threw her weird glances, even those who alienate her.
she was only 14 and yet she can give up so much just to have this baby born.
she grew up in a family full of warmth and happiness.
she listened to how happy and blissful her parents felt when she was born.
so she decided, she wants the baby born, so that she can see her.
keeping in mind that she wants to see her baby safely born, she held on to her believe, that even as a young mother, she can still give birth to a healthy baby and will be able to watch her grow...
but nothing is perfect.
she almost died when she was in labour, which was a month earlier than her expected labour date.
she lost too much blood,but her baby was well, safe and sound in the ICU.

in this drama, alot of things can be seen.
the practical side of the reality, the warmth of the family portrayed and many more.
parents do stuff uncontrollably for the sake of their children, at any price.
as an outsider, when u ask them why they choose to do so, their only answer will be, 'because i'm a father.'
they forgive and forget whatever wrongdoings we have.
though they are angry, Miki's parents still stood by her to accompany her throughout the process of pregnancy.
though there is nothing much she can do, miki's teacher still tried her best to protect the interest of miki's future education.
though she had hurt her once, Miki's best friend still plucked up courage to reconcil with her and tried to stand up for her as well.
though he was young, as a 15 year old father, he still knows what is called responsibility.
though he was really young in the family, Miki's brother still show how much he cared and loved his sister.
Miki was strong and couragoues.
you should see the face of hers when she saw her baby for the first time.
the doctor asked her to touch the baby, saying that babies will know if the one touching it is their mother. if it is, the baby will feel safe and gradually fall asleep.
she cried when her baby help her by the finger.
those little tiny fingers. small yet filled with strength, circling her whole hand onto her mother's finger, feeling secured with the touch.

there are many circumstances where a person have to grow up and face the music.
this drama just showed one of them.
after having the baby, Miki grew up into a mature girl.
she will think seriously before she makes a right decision.
though the road ahead is tough, she will still carry on, won't she?

yup, i haven yet watched the last episode. but i guess, it wun be good coz the baby somehow isn't in pink of health. anyway, the baby is only 1648g at birth!
i dunno if this is a true story, but it sure touches people's hearts.
cheers!!
goodnight!

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today was yet another day at home.
went out for dinner and movie with junhui, qingren, kel and weiyu.
watched twilight.
we wanted to watch yesman, but but but, the show starts late and means will end late and means i have to go home late and sleep late.
but the thing is after the movie, we still went to mac to have an ice cream till 11! if we watched yesman, we could just nice end at 11 and then off home we go! and my parents, drove me from jurong point to have supper! so here i am, still coming home late and sleeping late...
wells, right.
the movie.
how should i say?
though i didn't read the book before, which i will sooner or later..., i dun really like the movie. everything happens real fast.
its like happening too fast that some parts seemed impossible and weird.
like harry potter.
though the three hour movie is a long time, the movie is still a summed-up one.
i guess that is the bad thing of having a novel being converted to a movie...
i wanna watch other movies!
another movie coming up that is also from the novels is going to be 'shopaholic'.
i hope it will be nice=)
now i shall ahve to help my parents at the stall for these next three days, til x'mas is over!
and i should say, no celebration it will mean!
dad's bdae is 24th but we ain't gonna celebrate i think...coz we did on sun!
went dinner with family at zheng fa huo hai xian!
awesome is the word.
and one more thing, the tuition.
i bet i'm just too nice to them?
they are going on a holiday and they are not telling me till i asked?
dun they have the kind of common sense to just inform me earlier?
its not like i have the whole world's time just to tuition him.
if they want, they can sack me or i can sack them!
no doubts about it.
what's with the other tuition has got to do with me?
i suppose it's out of the way, not at all my business to worry?
i know i have to endure it as it was me in the first place wanted this assignment.
i shouldn't give up.
no matter what, i will continue to teach till they request me to quit.

alright, the pics, i have to wait tilli have energy to upload, as i'm gonna turn in soon!
bye everybody...

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hey people!
moi back since 15 dec!
thisweek passed rather fast...rah! and one more week to go before the new school term starts, saded.
tue and wed, o had been a good girl!
i went to help out at the stall=)
not exactly tiring though as i expected i will be.
and then, 4e4'07 chalet!
erm, should i say, 'alot'of people turned up?
yea, some people did made an effort to come, and some cant come due to certain reasons, but if you promised someone something, shouldn't u do it?

that, aside!
i really have an urge to say something.
but really, my sec school class guys are MUCH better than *toot!*(those few, if you get what i mean...)
i really ponder over the matter of 'why the huge diff?'
Gosh

today, was the outing.
at arab street.
screwed is the word.
this is the first event that shuping and i organised.
though it isn't any big event, it's still involves preparations.
right, i was pissed with myself and not others.
i was really sorry to those in my group.
i dun mean to give that kind of a face.
but partly is coz i only caught an hour plus sleep in the morning at the chalet before leaving for home then to the event.
so i was really drained.
i was really touchy and i know you all can feel it.
everthing was clumped together and i had to juggle among them so my lousy management landed me with an exhausted self.
u all need not feel bad k?
i wasn't that active i guess and i took it for granted that organising events will be less complicated.
i'm sorry i made you guys feel so dull after the outing.

well weeellll, let me tell you all something.
just now on the way home from bugis on the train.
i was alone and without a seat, so i leaned against a 'wall'
i was totally drowsy and i kept 'ka nua' and almost fell!
i was wondering if there are people watching so i kept looking around after i do my stupid mouth.
its joke man! i mean, if someone really laughs very hard then i will never go cy!
gosh, i'm tired and i need to sleep!
goodnight people!

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Right, its been a few days since I've blogged.
So here am I, blogging!
To start off, i had something to show..hee
i was looking through my notebooks and i found a "poem" i had written for myself when i wasin secondary school?
Yup, a poem.
This is how it goes:

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heya people!

i dunno yumin zoomed in when she took this pic! and my eyes so small! is pea-sized can? and my pimple filled face=S =(

=9

cheeeeeseeee! says szeyin's fingers!

she will pose when a camera faces her, nice model lehhh=)

can guess whose set of teeth is these? winner, too bad no prize la! if want prize, find yumin ok?

alot of unglam photos uh...ya, big face!

yay! new member of spp! Shi Chieh! whee!

cheese!

oops! sorry, i should have cut the feet off! but rest assured do, i'm still the shorter one!^^

"can give me back the million dollaars u borrowed form me?"hehehe

group photo 1, me as photographer...

i like this! us 05 girls in spp! three cheeradesss! ^^

most of the pictures of us are taken using doreen's camera and other cameras, thankx ya!

next, is outing with a few 4e4 peeps...let me name them all ( shurong, brenda, diona, tze hsuan, kok leong, edward, kendrick, jonathan, cheng yong, jeremy)

went CU to have dinner and laughed alot! had a really fun time with them! though not many people were there, but still, enjoyed=) after CU, we went secondround...prata! heard of prata bomb? haha! its with sugar inside and very small....we left at around 10 and bused home....really nice!!!

on the bus, i nothing to do....with shurong

yay! three with three missing! RAH!

today! went for "chihuahua" with doreen and szeyin and yumin and another fun time out! and i was reminded that i needa buy clothes for new year! but but, broke now...how how?

photo of the day? haha! ^^

wowow! spent an hour or so on this post alone! RAH! tired out~

gonna sleep soon soon soon! coz my 'headaches' are gone! wahaha! i know i'm being mean, but...cant help it? =)

cyasss=)

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really pissed..
nothing seems to go the right way, all haywire.
what i want to do now is scream

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tralalaS~
goodie!
one last one more to go...then tmr is bowling!
no money ah! 怎么办嘞?
gonna finish watching dramas!
let me name what i'm watching currently...
Aishiteruze Baby....Jap
Vampire Knight Guilty...Jap
霹靂MIT...Taiwanese
14 sai no...14 岁之母...Jap
通天干探...a HK drama on Channel 55
RE-WATCH...终极一家...Channel 56 a taiwanese drama
斗牛要不要...again a taiwanse drama and channel 56!
i should be able to complete them this hols...if i not working:>
and also...work...no..is homework!
2 reports to be handed in...one is due on sch reopen...another one due next mon!
need to hand in means needa go to school!!!
i have to do the collating ba i guess..., else..who leh? hope this report...even without help and advice from ym or sy...will be a presentable one...haha..=)
tmr is pathology... RaAH!
cyas!

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haish...still haven finish my studying.... hopefully can finish soon soon!
anatomy...argh.
ate alot!
biscuits...
thats why the biscuits in my house is always finishing so soon...
main culprit is non other then moi!
yesterday i arranged tuition @ 12..
but in the end, the mother got the wrong time.
she thought i will be going at 12 plus!
but the thing is i told her like a week ago?
when i was almost reaching the void deck, she sent me an sms asking me to go at 1 instead!
Rah!
wasted my time larrr waited at her void deck for like one pathetic hour?!
was really pissed voz there is really no where for me to sit!
there is construction site at her void deck and the only place for me to sit is beside a huge pile of garbage!
so so so, basically is stand for the one hour lo.
i was really angry, but the mother only asked for half an hour of tuition.
i was quite guilty, but who ask them make me wait leh? hmm...
stuying makes people emo, don't u agree?
i wanna sing!
gosh, but i AM BROKE...
sometimes will think of some sad things out of a sudden or when watching some dramas which will remind us something sad.
was watching this taiwanese drama while i took a break from studying.
in the end cried when the father of 5 died without even seeing the face of his newborn...
i thought, why is it only i am crying, but others just stare at the tv.
isit because im weak?
hmm
when i see people die on tv, oldie memories flashed pass.
and without fail, i will cry.
there was once i saw my mom cried when her sister, my second aunt, passed away.
its only us, me and my mom.
she cried for a while, before picking herself back again to join the others downstairs.
i will never forget it...that scene.
never will it disappear from my mind.
that is when i saw the weak mother of mine.
people gets really weak when it comes to family.

sorry for making this post so sad. all these are just memories. they dun stand much in the future. just let it sediment deep deep down..... life and death is just part and parcel of life, isn't it?

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