Counting down! 3 days to Chinese New Year!!!

lala!

but I'm sure, very fast You will see me enjoying my holidays liao...wahahaha

Gems hor...i really dunno how i should do it...

i die die wanna use that idea...but it seems a mission impossible?

where to find old couples? erm i mean have lar, but they willing to let me take pictures of them?

randomly, i cut my hair! for those who dunno haha.

i am said to look even more kido in it!

dunno if i should be happy to hear that..haha...but its always good to be young!

yesterday i was on the bus...

then i felt really really bad...

coz i was sitting down.....

okie it was like that.....

i board a bus. was standing initailly but i saw a seat so i went to sit down. the seat was like 4 in a row along the window kind...not the two by two one...

so beside me was a mother and her daughter.

then a pregnant lady board the bus.

i was supposed to be the one giving up my seat.

in the end is the mother and her daughter beside me who stood up to let the pregnant lady sit.

throughout the journey on the bus, i feel like having a hole where i can hide inside.

felt so helpless and coward and weak.

i dunno, but i just feel so bad about it.

i eanted to stand up, but my butt just dun listen to my brain...

so i stay stuck onto the seat.

another incident. i feel so useless too.

was on the MRT.

it was a little cram but i mange to have a space for me to lean on next to the door.

after some time, when the train went underground, a lady ard her 20s or early 30s was not feeling well.

i knew it coz she was very pale and suddenly she squatted down holding on to the handle.

No one, including me, care about her. they just look at her and then treated that they didn't see anything.

whilst i stood there. i reached for my tissue when i saw her sweat.

but again, i stood there.

looking at her all the while.

until sometime later another lady finally asked if she was alright. and coincidentally, someone got off the train and she could get her seat.

really i felt so useless at that point of time.

i was thinking, why am i not doing anything?

why am i just standing there and staring at her and holding my tissue paper?

it's not like the tissue paper can fly over to her on its own.

she looked so pale and sick.

but there is something i was pissed. (though i count myself same category as them)

those sitting down....they did not bother to give up their seat to her!

anyway, really sad to say, i am not a good person...

here is the 70th post!

well, it really occurs to me that maybe everlasting love and responsibility were all meant to be kidding. like i mentioned in the previous post, i said there will be some old couples that are able to live till ripe old age TOGETHER.

but now i feel, it seems difficult? Or rather, impossible?

Males and females come from different planets. putting them together is just like "sun crashing earth" or 火星撞地球...

after the honeymoon period, there will be love...then responsibility....then irritation...then bickering...then quarrels...then more and more furious quarrels.

there seems no end and no point in them together, so they will decide that they separate.

that's when alot of people will suffer.

well oh well, getting mundane man this post!

but me not in mood neither.

so byes~

miss them! =(

have a bet and i will win now.
bet= now i so relaxed, tmr presentation will be goner.
see? i will win!
i'm sure to be so nervous that i can cry man!
feel like dying now..
right, this experiment was an easy one and was done ages ago, and i should be very familiar.
but! now is presentation!
freaking me out after that trial last week. disaster.
i still remember the first time i had presentation.
was so scared that i shivered!
diediedie!
hope i can get to sleep today...
calm down....
nights~

this pic was taken at haji lane if i'm not wrong, one of the grafiti on the walls but this was at one of the shophouse windows=)
CIP for our character development!
fun was the word....
guess the best part will be us singing a song to the residents together as a class!!!
wowow~ incredible man!
and wanting....cool girl!
she plucked up courage to hold the microphone and sing, with the rest of us as the chorus=)
some residents clapped along and i dunno why....i felt so happy.
maybe everything was considered better than before. when i first visited another nursing home. they, i would say, is more difficult to take care. though i visited that home for twice, i still cant overcome my barrier. i will still show that i'm afraid of them. but now this time, i'm not scared, i even made an effort to talk to them! improvement acheived indeed...=)
they were nice to be with...they will try as they can when we requested for them to clap along the song to enjoy the moment.
some of them remained cheerful and i think that is what all of us can learn form them--stay cheerful no matter what happens as nothing can be that bad.
there was a female resident, she was quite agitated and requested we leave the place.
we cant say that she was trying to be mean. on the other hand, i feel she was feeling lonely and in her heart, maybe she wanted so much to be surrounded and talk to other people. what i felt was that she was kinda left there by her loved ones and they din visit her often. so when people visit her, she will think that they are hypocrites and refuse to be friendly to us. that is was i think, but who knows the real side of the story?
i guess no one changes, either for the worst or for the better, unless under much stress.
this trip there was not futile, but instead it was great!

and, open house @ sp
last day!
morning shift...din help much...coz i kinda really noob at IT...teach me something and i take ages to rmb the steps to it and do it correctly eventually.
after moving the things from the club to the booth, the printer cant print!
gosh right...but after that, probelm was solved....not by me but by jasmine. without her, i guess i will panick like hell!
alrighto~ all over wowow~ tmr is gonna b sunday!
another sleep in day...and work to do tmr!
i shall go the bathe now!
cyas people!

my niece!! 5-6 months old =) ARIEL
tralalas~
true enough, yesterday was home at ard 10 plus and that is possible coz my dad fetched me from yew tee!
if not i will reach home even later!
my student was quite well behaved as he knows i'm sick.
he even asked me to go see a doc! should i say he is quite sweet though sometimes abit unbearable? hahas
he even offered me a box of tissue coz i finished my packet.
haha
he quite give me face la. and i use my nose to "threaten" him...saying i made an effort to go teach him, so he must do his homework properly! he promised, but dunno if he will keep it
haha
after tuition i went to a coffee shop to get some packets of tissue to emergency...in case my nose gets worked up again..
and a packet of milo. but i was rather dumb...
the coffee shop was quite near the mrt station and i still bought a HOT milo....i should have bought a warm one lar...in the and i still threw it away...cos its really very hot that i even got my tongue scalded! so i drank a little before throwing it away....=(
today was a nice day i suppose?
ermmmm
one hour lesson and off we go to have presentation discussion!
and chatted....
and yar!
today was pissed with someone~
she was really rude can? she rejected my friend like without even looking at her? how good mannered is that? i dislike poeple like that. even if she was rushing for time, she should at least stop for three seconds and say her words properly. 3-4 secs...and she cannot afford it? i dun care if she heard me...i'm not even acquainted with you. i need not care what you will think of me.
urgh...

another other side, i got my formal suit for my presentation on mon!
hurray!
i look really like office girl lar
but who cares? presentable can liao...=)
the sales girl was nice! pleasant looking and approachable, will give suggestions...she told me to wear straight skirts for presentation..haha
nice lehhh

tmr, going to school for open house...i think i am a slacker there lo...doing little down there..haishhh=(
then after that, heading to bedok! for CIP at one of the elderly nursing home...change bedsheets! ohmy, but 20 of us changing bedsheets? so many?

and! omgomgomg!
presntationnnnn~ hate it scared of it, u name it!!!!
presntation=i dunno it, it dunno me!
like that die le la!
i dun dare to even think that i will have to present..but luckily, it will only be infront of the girls and the lecturer...so i guess not tt bad? blehhhh hope for the best lor!

ya i think people really look different in different clothes la. especially formals and uniforms...

guys, no matter how ugly(i'm NoT trying to be mean here, but merely stating the truth!) will look nice in uniforms(uniform groups uniform i mean...ie RC la, NCC la, NP la etc etc.=))

formals! today saw thosee year 3s wearing formals, with ties and ladies as well. they look charming, smart and beautiful for the ladies! cool!

saw someone with formal today...smart and handsome! haha=)

cyas people!

had been sneezing since i was out of my bath just now.

omg, i hate it.

sneezing non stop is torturous.

and now, myeyes...puffy and sleepy.

i needa sleep soon coz tmr i will be a whole day OUT!

8-3 lessons

3-6 open house

7-8.30 tuition

and i will be home till earliest 10!

14 hours of work....

maybe not as taxing as working more hours at my parent's stall but... ya..haha=)

formal wear!

i have presentation on mon and need to wear formal!

i shall get my mom to go shopping with me on fri evening!

hope she is free~ so i no need pay

wahaha!

*claps*

goodnight everybody!

right right right!

today i was very mean la....i din go for the talk on the equipments that we need to buy in year two.

so sorry to ym, sy and ws. =(

but on the other hand, i was happy to have watched PONYO meet up hilary!!

of coz the others la!

muacks to them all.

starting school soon for them and that means so much less time when we can meet up!

we all lived on the same side of SG but seldom meet up...

anyway,

oops! this one no shuzzz! wakekes~

people!

how are you guys?

know what? on my way walking back home from the bus stop, i saw a lot of roaches!

dead, alive, big, medium, small, crashed, u name it....

omgomgomg!

i'm feeling totally disgusted...

imagine having to see a cockroach after every few steps u take....

urgh!

i bet someone out there is having a killing roaches campaign of something, else where will these dead roaches come from??

this is the second time i see so many roaches at one time.

the previous time was when i was in secondary school. walking from school to bus stop with hilary and *poof* all the cockroaches are practically laid on the ground!

eeewww grooosss is what you will say wun you?

some are still not dead! still crawling!!!

omgomgomg!

i'm so dead am i?

people!

monday coming again...

sobx, the weekend is gone again!

weekends always take some time to come, but it always pass with a *shiu!*

heve you guys gotten everything needed for CNY?

I think i have already done so, but will see huh?

if i go shopping again before CNY and if i have money to spend!

now i will learn to be thrifty!

unbelievable? 50 50 lar.

wed going out with the girls again!

woohoo, yeehaaaa!

shall see more of them now, before their school start proper.

when their lessons start, all i can do is wish them all the best.

maybe u think its too early, but i tell u. very fast i will see them taking a levels and then telling me that they are having their super duper long hols!

then i will get jealous.

haha~!

had been talking and discussing about their graduation vacation!

i have been overseas, but its only with family, nv once in my life was with friends!

okie i think i'm making myself sound old when i'm not...

but really, i hope it can really be a wish come true!

i wanna go backpacking...coz its so cool!

but wella, now its not the time to think of these...

alrighto!

time to turn in for the day!

my complexion is getting worse man! help!

night! and bYe!~

heyo!

blogging once again!

had a bbq with ex-tuition peeps, was nice!

din not eat much coz somehow, the pit was always overcrowded.

met them again and really missed them haha! though we din not talk much....

christmas and new year...was uneventful...as i need to go to my parents' stall to help out.

nowadays im so lethagic. not wanting to talk much.

mst was bad like again?

can i just go to the nearest wall and bang real hard against it?

i currently having a mixture of feelings and they are swirling in my head. i cant stop them and think straight.

mood swings are so casual, come and go as they wished.

affecting not only self, but others as well.

as we grew older, alot of things are seen and interpreted more tranparently.

the decisions we make can involve alot of people.

i'm weak.

i dun even have the courage to stop things from happening.

words came up to my mouth, but stopped right there.

nothing comes out in the end.

just me swallowing back the words.

i have a real lack of self confidence.

many a time, i only see myself as an useless bum, doing nothing to improve anything.

i always say, but no actions done.

i'm such a coward.

i afraid of losing when i did not even make an effort to hold on to anything.

i'm tired.

i really hope time can freeze and i can fall into a deep sleep which i do not want to wake up from.

bye~