Friday, January 2, 2009 12:25 AM
heyo!
blogging once again!
had a bbq with ex-tuition peeps, was nice!
din not eat much coz somehow, the pit was always overcrowded.
met them again and really missed them haha! though we din not talk much....
christmas and new year...was uneventful...as i need to go to my parents' stall to help out.
nowadays im so lethagic. not wanting to talk much.
mst was bad like again?
can i just go to the nearest wall and bang real hard against it?
i currently having a mixture of feelings and they are swirling in my head. i cant stop them and think straight.
mood swings are so casual, come and go as they wished.
affecting not only self, but others as well.
as we grew older, alot of things are seen and interpreted more tranparently.
the decisions we make can involve alot of people.
i'm weak.
i dun even have the courage to stop things from happening.
words came up to my mouth, but stopped right there.
nothing comes out in the end.
just me swallowing back the words.
i have a real lack of self confidence.
many a time, i only see myself as an useless bum, doing nothing to improve anything.
i always say, but no actions done.
i'm such a coward.
i afraid of losing when i did not even make an effort to hold on to anything.
i'm tired.
i really hope time can freeze and i can fall into a deep sleep which i do not want to wake up from.
bye~
i just realised, the six of us had no photos....
Labels: us six
``swEEt``
